Coincidences are not coincidences.  They are thoughts, words, events that co- incide in our lives as signs.  When we truly understand and believe that everything happens for a reason we will begin to see it in our lives. What about when the signals are conflicting?

I recently had the opportunity to donate a kidney for a friend.  It was a series of “coincidences” that led me to picking up the phone and calling the transplant coordinator to have the blood work done.  These “coincidences” led me to what I knew in my heart, that I would be a kidney donor. Of course I was a match, and elated!  I was so happy to be helping him and have always felt strongly about organ donation, having had an Uncle that was given an extra thirteen years of life through a heart transplant.

Exactly two days after the news that I was a match “John” was called by the hospital, they had a kidney for him!  By eight that night he had a new functioning kidney in his body after years on the transplant list. But what about me?  What about the strong feelings I had, the coincidences that led me to being an eligible donor? I was so happy for him and so sad for myself.  I had already given my kidney away in my heart and mind, but more importantly I had given him the hope that he needed to receive what he wanted most.

In the course of testing and waiting to see if I would be a match for “John” I had been contacted by an acquaintance that wanted to know more.  She wanted to help a friend of hers find a kidney.  Because I felt like I had already given the kidney away, I contacted him about 6 weeks after “John” had his transplant. I went through the initial process with a new hospital and scheduled the blood work.  Then my daughter was hospitalized.  It was another three weeks before I could have the blood work drawn, and those nine vials once again proved me to be a match!  Again with the heartfelt elation.  Now more tests were scheduled requiring about 5 hours in a hospital that’s an hour away.  A date was scheduled; 4 days later a mandatory meeting for work that I had to be at, was scheduled for that day.

So, here I am, three weeks after a wake up call by a friend.  Me, who relies so heavy on guidance by Spirit, and coincidences was unable to see the signs.  Apparently because I just plain didn’t want to.  The first patient gets a kidney, the second, obstacle after obstacle has popped it’s head.  For the most part, in my life the signs I see are affirmations; not so in this case, and I did not recognize them for what they were. I was seeing the physical signs that I was a match and nothing else.  No sooner did I decide to stop the process and wait, in the past 48 hours two friends have had kidney infections, one being hospitalized.  So what does that mean for me? What’s up with the kidneys around me?

It means I wait.  I will wait on the Lord, and I will say to Him what I say in times like this,  Lord, give me a sign and make it a big one!

I still feel that organ donation is in my future, maybe the lesson was to prepare my heart and mind for the process, for which I am ready when the time comes.  I will wait and wait until the sings are clear, with no conflict, whether it means I sit and do nothing or end up flying across the country.

Learn to wait, learn to wait with your heart and your eyes open, with faith and belief, and the Spirit will lead and guide, will provide signs, will make things in your life co-incide.

Be Blessed in your waiting!~Joy